SheWhoKnows


the poet


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Somewhere out there is a smile for me
Somewhere . . .
But not in this dimension.
Cross the Great Divide?
Not in this lifetime.
No, no.
Tears are all the emotion on this face.
What does it mean?
What do I mean?
To you.
To me.
To him.
Him, he, that man.
Just another one?
Not to me.
Probably to him.
I'm stupid.
I'll never understand.
Hmm, I said in this lifetime.
What about the next?
Or if there is no next life.
Then what about whatever comes after death.
Or what about the nothingness?
Death.
The beginning of life.
You cannot live until you start to die.
Babies die, children die, adults die.
I die.
To accept death with open arms.
Ah! What a pleasant thought.
I could accept it, but not openly.
There's still a part of me that wants to live.
To be with him.
And why not?
After all, death begins with life.
And I have not yet lived.
How could I die?
Easily, I tell myself.
Pull the trigger, put pressure on the hilt.
Take a big swallow, go for a swim.
'Twould be so easy.
And yet so hard.
Easy.
Easy as 1, 2, 3 ... 4
1. Thinking about it.
check
2. Planning it.
check
3. Doing it.
check
4. Succeeding in doing enough damage.
not check.
One day maybe.
But after a bowl of Frosted Flakes,
Not today.