the poet

you want to know  how can anyone  large shadow  a, b, c  time of day  spring  look out my window  I see you staring  cruel place  somewhere  endings  not me  sun shines  stare at the mirror  hurt, pain  To A Soulmate  tiger's eyes  rain splatters  treat me like shit?  fire inside!  No One  journeys  love and lust  My Friend  falling  bitch, whore  no comfort  yes, yes  the music begins  somewhere i know  no longer  understanding  smurf  in...out...  Label.  addiction  lie in the darkness  frustrations  Fire  cold, alone  SheWhoKnows  you fell in love  human  wolf sees all  what to think  i feel lost  angel  twelve 

silently in the dark.
safe in your embrace.
I mouth the words I long to say
too scared to actually speak.
your long arms tighten around me
as if you know what I am thinking
but there is another on your mind.
holding me, though thinking about them
can I get used to it?
how can I love someone when the biggest piece of their heart
is already taken forever
but this is as it should be
inadequacy washes over me
it is not my fault, though I feel it is
I am not good enough,
smart enough,
pretty enough.
I will never be.
and yet . . .
yet I try, I hope, I dream
and the she comes in.
the one who tears my heart in pieces
she is the mother of your child
you will always love her, and him
I will always have a place in my heart for my ex-loves,
but I won't be around them every other day
yet you will
I tighten my embrace of you
desperate to hold on
to keep you
but you pull away to go to them
ripping pieces of my heart along with you.
to see her arms around you
to know that you once held her as you now hold me
to understand that the love I get was once hers
this is not me
and it will not be,