the poet

you want to know  how can anyone  large shadow  a, b, c  time of day  spring  look out my window  I see you staring  cruel place  somewhere  endings  not me  sun shines  stare at the mirror  hurt, pain  To A Soulmate  tiger's eyes  rain splatters  treat me like shit?  fire inside!  No One  journeys  love and lust  My Friend  falling  bitch, whore  no comfort  yes, yes  the music begins  somewhere i know  no longer  understanding  smurf  in...out...  Label.  addiction  lie in the darkness  frustrations  Fire  cold, alone  SheWhoKnows  you fell in love  human  wolf sees all  what to think  i feel lost  angel  twelve 

i feel lost, alone
inner thoughts
inner demons
inner peace
the trials and tribulations of the self
- body, mind, and soul
my very being cries out

what once was will never be again
what could have been is not
and what is cannot be

my eyes close as a tear falls
where is my life?
i was going to be something
instead i am nothing

I have brains, intelligence
the world would bow to my knowledge
and tremble at my discoveries
I have ability, the gift
I would heal the sick
and destroy my enemies
I have beauty, the feminine touch
those who see me love me
unknowingly caught in a spell
But all of these failed
I am nothing.
no brains, ability, or beauty.

i strike out in search of myself.
of me
of who i am
of who i will become
I know who I was
or at least i think i do
now i wonder.

what happened to the girl who was at the top of her class?
what happened to the girl who showed so much promise that Crowley himself protected her?
what happened to the girl that turned heads as she walked by?

she is gone.

i am here
i am all that's left.